why are we so idealistic?

It’s a new year. A perfect 45 square. A year where I want to square my moments smiling and root all my fears. I have made several resolutions, as everyone does and also have gone around and asked everyone theirs. My main resolution was to focus on gaining happiness from myself. 

After this fall, I was so ecstatic to be back, to meet everyone who were home to me. But rather I feel that everyone has changed. Or have I changed? In the labyrinth of juggling my life, studies, emotions in college I realized that I am not the same person who I was when I left my town in August to the one who I am today. I am not better than who I was back then, nor am I worse. I am just different. ( Ps: this is not a ‘I’m not like the other girls moment’ in-fact I am very much like the other girls) I need to be content in knowing that I love pink-that I do really enjoy making my Pinterest boards and planning my outfits hundred days in advance. Also, yes not every girl is like this. ( I don’t mean to offend any personnel).

Moreover, I have realized that I need to take pride in who I am and who I have become. Maybe I have just learnt how to do laundry to minimize my time or maybe I have been lazy by keeping it in the drier for 2 whole days (I hope my college friends don’t read this). Maybe I have learnt how getting Bs is sometimes okay ( IT IS ABSOLUTELY NOT but if I do get one I need to be just a chill girl) or maybe I have enjoyed when my Industrial design professor appreciated my model. Maybe I have learnt the art of not missing home or maybe I have just spent 3938599 hours hoping I was with them. 

What I mean to say is that I am not constant, but everyone hopes to be idealistic and that means taking only one of each category. ‘you can’t be all over the place’ 

yes, you can and you still hold structure. (also something I learnt from my ID projects) 

 & that’s my new year resolution